WHOSE CHOCOLATE IS THAT!? Can I eat it? Or is it a stranger's?
Alright, so I finally decided to post a freaking update. I have no idea what i'll be writing about at this point...i'll just add tidbits as the day goes by and post it sometime in the evening...
So "Will and Grace "is my official new favorite show. I just can't get enough. Karen is like...the kind of person i'm gonna grow up to be. Kinda sad, but hey, at least i'll have money! xD Yeah...kinda depressing really. I have no idea what I want to do with my life at this point...I mean, the Pilot thing is cool...but I need to get a degree in something first, which means going to college, which means choosing a college which means leaving all my friends! I have this horrid fear of loosing my friends, it's like an acute form of seperation anxiaty...it scares the shit out of me. I cannot even IMAGINE a world withou my friends, a life without my friends. I mean...I know we all need to grow up and go our seperate ways...but I wish that growing up didn't mean growing apart...it's cruel.
Urg! I hate it when my mom is home! >.< She used to be decent...but now she's bitchy before going to work and bitchy when comming back. She's all "You don't know how hard it is going to work everyday! Getting up early, driving around..." Well you know what mother!? I GET UP EARLY TOO! I go to freaking school and do my best so that YOU can't bitch at me for more than you already do! And I WOULD DRIVE if I had to or if I had my licence! GOD DAMN IT WOMAN! Calm the frig down already! >.< I never understood why people complained about their parents so much before this moment...
Speaking of driving...I really want to sign up for that class...I mean, i'm turining 16 in June! I could get my licence right after I take the class! ...or I'd have to wait until I got back from Europe...which I really don't want to do. I hope I do well driving though! I mean, my dream is to be a pilot! I had better be able to at least drive a car...I want to go the path of my dad though and get a MOTERBIKE licence! That would be freaking awesome...or I could just ride with someone who has a bike, that would be cool too. xD
Bah...I don't feel like posting more...maybe another time...
Meet Tequila, my new Chihuahua! <3
Holy freaking hotties! Davey+Jeffrey=TEH SEX!
Sorry, brain died...
Jeffrey Star is such a lucky little bitch! <3
School is out for the Winter!
You have no idea how fucking happy I am about this...
I went to Vevey yesterday and met up with Justine, we went to Starbucks (it just opened XD) and got some junk to snack on. We spent a few hours talking about random shit, mostly our bad experiances when traveling, and then parted ways. It was pouring rain and I was fucking soaked when I got home...but I felt so much better than I had in months.
I also went out at around 8PM to meet some people down in Montreux at Mayfair. We didn't do much, and I went home around 10PM, but I had felt absolutely amazing by the end of the night.
I finally realised that yeah, people hate me, but some people either don't or they can stand me being around. I didn't have that much fun, but I didn't feel excluded or hated or anything either.
It was a nice feeling, just realising that your fucked up, piece of shit life is on hold, and for just the Christmas holidays you will finally get some rest.
I feel so relaxed today.
Hakuna Matata my friends, Hakuna Matata.
Well, I think I’m in a sufficiently morbid mood today…I caught myself standing on my balcony this morning, barefoot and wearing only my night shirt. It was snowing. I was cold. I didn’t remember walking onto my balcony… Hell I don’t even remember waking up until that point. Maybe subconsciously I wanted to catch a cold so I wouldn’t have to go to school…I went inside. I was freezing so I went back to bed. I woke up again, warm, hungry. I ate. And my day has consisted of sitting on my bed looking out my window at the people in the streets below. Everything is foggy and coated in snow…that’s what triggered the entry I guess…
Eh, I suppose I’m lucky that I didn’t feel the urge to jump off my balcony. With the control I had over my body at that point in the morning…I might have done it without realizing it. Until I hit the ground that is…I’m only six stories up, but I’m pretty sure it would still do me some damage…
Bah, I think I need to start doing something detrimental to my health...like drinking 'till I pass out. Everyone in school, who knows I havn't slept in two weeks, suggested that. Even the teachers. Well, either that or getting high in the afternoons to cut down my stress levels...Well, good to know that everything mentioned above is readily available for when I inevitably cave...
Ugh. I feel like shit. Guess I really did catch my death this morning. Goddamnit, first time I sleepwalk and I get sick...
"Death is not the beginning. Death is like a bullet hole for a full stop. After death, it all.just.stops."
Spiffy, no? Just thought of it this moment...God my mind is becomeing twisted...I need a Monaco. I have no time to get one though, can't go out on Wednesday 'coz I have soccer...can't go on weekends 'coz I have homework...Bah, there's beer in the fridge, I'll see if I can teach myself to make one sometime...
God, I need more sleep. But right now, I should be doing homework...so, i'm gonna go do that...then i'll take a shower and finish some of these projects.
Bah, sleep is for the weak anyway! What's the worst that could happen, huh?
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You are a fun, special girl who only has the best. The only bad thing about you is that you are cocky and vein....SOMETIMES.
What type of girl are you?!!
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|You Are Internal - Realist - Empowered|
You feel your life is controlled internally.
If you want something, you make it happen.
You don't wait around for things to go your way.
You value your independence and don't like others to have control.
You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.
You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.
You realize that working the system does get you further.
You know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.
|Your Hair Should Be Blue|
Wild, brilliant, and out of control.
You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.
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|What Your Sleeping Position Says|
You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.
|You Passed 8th Grade Science|
Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!
|You Passed 8th Grade Math|
Congratulations, you got 9/10 correct!
|Your Heart Is Purple|
For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection.
If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength.
Your flirting style: Sincere
Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house
Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive
What you bring to relationships: Understanding
|Your Career Type: Artistic|
You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.
You would make an excellent:
Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor
The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.
|The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick|
You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times.
Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness!
Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite
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|Your Seduction Style: Au Natural|
You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.